Not Throwing Up Tonight

I lay my head down tired as can be

I am just about to enter dream mode when

Something starts to crawl up!

Heart burn in the third degree

Ugghhh! How my stomach twist and turns

Not tonight I say, swallowing constantly

I rub my poor sunk in belly

What could be left, I thought

This was the last straw

Dear God,

It is me again, yes the sheep

That is lost more than found

I just have a few more things to say

I am not throwing up tonight

I am not throwing up any night

I have admitted that I have made mistakes

Not so deep down I am terribly sorry

I hope that one day

Your love will forgive me

I have come to terms with who I am

And it is what I always wanted to be

And hear me now

I am not throwing up tonight

I am not throwing up any night

God, this no longer is a

Request, Plea, or Begging on my knees

This is just how its going to be

I am using my Free Will card

I have been saving it for 19 years

And this is as good time as any

I am not throwing up tonight

I am not throwing up any night

You can tap dance on my bladder all you want

I hope you are hearing me

Because I am shouting on the top of my lungs

Inside this head of mine

So good night God, sleep tight

I know I will for sure

Because I am not throwing up tonight

I am not throwing up any night

Amen

Just like that I started to feel better.

P.S. God... perhaps you could send me little

Reminders from time to time of this night

For tomorrow is a new day

Filled with new fears

And harder challenges

So could you deal me in another Free Will card

For my hand is getting small